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| I'm sad I have to do this... |
[14 Nov 2004|11:30am] |
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I love wickedstyx... I honestly do. Sadly, it's been getting out of hand, who reads it and all. I'm going to switch to my other account, my___molotov. Post a comment if I don't remember to add you. Thanks... =)
Sorry guys... but thanks.
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| Holy wow... |
[13 Nov 2004|10:16am] |
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I had a SERIOUSLY awesome dream or two last night. I'm at the Launch Pad... but it's all weird. It's MSI and I'm thinking "haven't I been looking forward to this forever, but it never happens?" then they come on stage ONLY IT'S MRS R INSTEAD OF THAT NEW BLONDE CHICK (the one who stole Vanessa's life LynZ's her name?). So I go up to the front, Geneva's there etc. They have a bunch of new songs which I guess my brain made up... and there was no charge at the concert right? Their song they play second goes "you're all just plain whores so that's why there's no goddamn motha fuckn' charge". Then they play Boomin and I'm on my boots so I'm all tall and near Jimmy singing along. He kisses me then I turn around and Lex is there and we start talking then he tells me he loves me (wtf). Things were just getting good (because Lex IS pretty hot..) then I woke up. Serious WTF.
Does Evan have access to this? Because my next dream had James Lay and me getting fucking wild in Toys R us.
Anyway. How very odd. I think Evan does have access. I'm fucked.
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| Another thing...! |
[03 Nov 2004|07:23am] |
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Sam and I should go into the music business. We can write the most WONDROUS ::cut cut cut:: music... and we know so many teenage fucks would buy it. We WANT that money. If they can do it, we can do it. If people like Max are alive... then we'll be getting rich. And we'd boycott WinMX and Kazaa... because we'd be able to buy music anyway HAHAHAHAHA:LKJADF:LKJDF:LSDF OMFG
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| Another thing- |
[28 Oct 2004|06:44am] |
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I just sneezed in my cereal.
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| Friends only. |
[27 Oct 2004|05:14pm] |
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I'm going friends only. Someone called my mom and told her about something I said in my livejournal.
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| In the computer room thing at school.... |
[27 Oct 2004|12:25pm] |
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Close friends become friends... friends become less close... those friends become people you once knew sorda well. In the end you're left with an occasional smile or "sorry" when you bump into each other. I still don't quite understand the cycle of events that leads to having less friends. Sometimes I wonder if it's Evan's fault at least partially. Then I remember... he's my love. Love and beauty are really the only things worth living for. There's so much beauty in the world... so much. I hate how I often forget it and end up sad.... sometimes I feel so depressed that I forget to go outside and look at the mountains or into his eyes. Sometimes I think about Max and remember how I used to feel for him... sometimes I feel so ugly but then again... who cares. The world is beautiful.
I hate these keyboards... so very very much. Anyway, this will be my most recent post since Celwin.
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| Whoa... what? |
[23 Oct 2004|09:22am] |
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They took away the malt? I hate Atkins. I decided to take a week off the diet... and ended up taking two months so I figured on my saturday stop to Starbucks that I might as well live a little. "One chocolate malt and a Java Chip frap please" cuz Sarah was with me and I mean, you gotta help a friend out. The woman behind the counter laughed at me and said that they had been gone for a while but I could have a "chocolate cream". I'm like whatever, sure. But I was mad so I got a cream cheese danish thing. Don't really remember what it was called because I don't EAT HUMAN FOOD. Anyway, it was delish. Twisted, yummy, flakey outside with cinniminni filling the twist and a cream cheese center. It was sensual.
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| I don't know. Honestly, who does. |
[22 Oct 2004|08:42pm] |
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.FIRSTS.
First best friend: Kurt? Antoinette?
First car: Mazda...?
First date: I don't enjoy dating.. but I think it was back in, I don't know.
First kiss: That counted as true love? The only- Evan.
First screen name: Haitcher.
First self purchased album: Nelly Furtado.
First funeral: Never been to one. I think the only one I go to will be my own... burial at sea, heh. Nothing personal about death, I love cemetaries... I just hate seeing old people in black. It's a timeless classic.
First pets: Cat... Kimmy! No... Kitten. That was his name.
First piercing/tattoo: Tongue.
.LASTS.
Last cigarette: A while ago.
Last car ride: Like... today?
Last kiss: Evan's behind me so like... hold on while I kiss him. 3 seconds ago as of NOW!
Last good cry: Not for some time. I cried from love the other night though with Evan =D
Last movie seen: Um... dunno.
Last beverage drank: Diet Rite!!!
Last food consumed: Ice CREEEEEAAAAMMM
Last crush: Evan.
Last phone call: Mawmmy... if I'm alone in my room with Evan she doesn't come in when she needs me, she calls my cell.
last chirp: WTF
Last time showered: Thi'smorning.
Last shoes worn: Cons.
Last cd played: Listening to my own playlist right now =D
Last item bought: Ice CREEEEAAAMM
Last annoyance: My mother.
Last disappointment: Not for a while!
Last time wanting to die: Not for a while either!
Last time scolded: Eh, don't remember.
Last shirt worn: One I'm wearing now. Recently put on.
Last website visited: THIS YAY
Last word you said: "YOU" As in "Evan I love you"
Last song you sang: Child Is Gone.
What color socks are you wearing? Barefeet =D
What color of underwear are you wearing? Like... rainbowish.
What's under your bed? Condoms... lots of them
What time did you wake up today? 6:30
Where do you want to go? Wherever Evan is... which is here.
Where are you going to live? I would like to live in New York city!!!
How many kids do you want? NONE
What kind of car(s): Hmmm... Dunno what will be available by the time I have the money.
Current mood: In love <333
Current music: Moby
Current taste: A taste for SEX... and like a weird minty thing I'm sucking on.
Current hair: Evan's brushing it.
Current clothes: Jeans, Evan's shirt.
Current annoyance(s): Eh, nothing.
Current desktop picture: Badtz. Like always ::shrugs with grin::
Current book: I can't read.
Current color of toenails: Flesh..ish?
Current time: I can't tell time.
Current hate: Stuff. My obesity.
Current love: Evan, we all saw that one coming!
UNIQUE --
1. Nervous Habits? I have accute anxiety disorder... I do everything. It escalates from hair twirling to knuckle popping and usually chewing my mouth at the same time. More like tearing it to shreads.
2. Are you double jointed? Yes. Tons.
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yes.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? It's my signature! And the hair.
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? Noooooooo!
6. Can you cross your eyes? No.
7. Tattoos? Promise not to tell...?
8. Piercings and where? Ears in a few places.
9. Do you make your bed daily? Don't need to. Bunk bed... no one can see the chaos that is my top bunk.
-- LA LA LAND --
48. What's your sleeping position? On tummy, or on my left side. Arms holding something... if I'm not clutching something I die.
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Yes.
50. Do you snore? No.
51. Do you sleepwalk? Once. I actually sleep flop.
52. Do you talk in your sleep? On occasion.
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Several.
54. How about with the light on? No, and I can't.
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? I can't fall asleep with anything on. No sound, no music, no tv, NOTHING. Maybe some LIGHT piano. MAYBE.
56. Have a crush? Only the love of my life, Evan.
Evan's brushing my hair, yay!
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| Credit cards are the devil's magic.. |
[22 Oct 2004|06:44am] |
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My yoga cd... LIKE IT WOMEN |
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Credit card bill being paid today, my head hurts. Max signed on last night and officially hates me. I mean, what did I do? I was just honest... Basically... our friendship seems to be over. I always knew we were getting there but I figured as long as we said hi to each other on the internet every now and then we could still be best friends. I mean, I haven't let anyone else take that position except maybe Evan but that HARDLY counts. Not even Sarah... well, I guess now I know what the future held all those years ago.
Burning a cd for yoga class and they'd better like it.
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| You make me wanna shoop... |
[18 Oct 2004|06:50am] |
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Sarah downloaded Shoop. My weakness is horny black women singing about various sexual positions.
I forgot to draw something for art so... I'm ephed. Cell project went by fine. I drew a neeeked woman. Max posted anonymously on my last (was it my last? It was one of my last) entry. I hate it when he does that... especially when he belittles himself whilst doing it.
It MIGHT have been Evan who posted that. I mean, he did afterall QUESTION EVERY LITTLE PIECE OF EVERY ENTRY I HAVE EVER WRITTEN. Well, he wondered what the hell my mood was about. Oh well. Was it Evan? Was it Max? Isn't this the dilema of my life? Who's pussy to eat? Which which which!
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| Whoa...!!! |
[13 Oct 2004|05:00pm] |
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My mom's yelling at me for being fat. I'm not too happy about that.
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| So... and so again... |
[10 Oct 2004|08:30am] |
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So... I miss Evan. Today I hope to hang out with Sarah... I miss her and love her so much. Well, I have realized that I am a total morning person. I am really refreshed right now. I go to sleep at like 11 or 12 and wake up around 7 totally happy. Yet another way I hit puberty but didn't... (using Ms James' term hahaha) Anyway, in addition to the no sex drive and stuff this is actually a plus.
Sarah- if you read this call me. My phone needs to see your number on caller ID.
Did you get all those messages I left you that said MEOW and stuff?
Jerriff: Where would you go if you were?
Sparky: That's a good question. There's a place in town. I have to get to Smiths to buy one- fast.
Jerriff: That sounds good.
Sparky: When will I be able to tell if I am?
Jerriff: You mean BESIDES the whole monthly thing? I don't know.
Sparky: Well, there's always next year.
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| Today... |
[09 Oct 2004|12:24pm] |
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Evan and I are planning to go EAT LOTS O SEXY FOOD. Anyone who wants to join us call my cell.
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[08 Oct 2004|07:55am] |
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You are a true hardcore Donnie Darko fan. Isn't the
movie amazing? Not to mention the actors are
perfect and the score is unbeatable! I bet you
have seen this movie more than a dozen times.
Do you won the soundtrack? Well i do! Thank you
for showing your love for this movie and taking
my quiz!
DONNIE DARKO
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| Crazy dreams.. |
[08 Oct 2004|07:04am] |
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Not last night, but yesterday night I had a dream about why Sarah is mad at me... it made no sense. I can usually trust my dreams but this time it seems hard. After that I had a very inspirational dream. Inspiring in the sense that it was so terrifying that I wrote it down and am using it as my English midterm.
I need Sarah back in my life. I'm starting to feel... boring. I mean, there's so much that I wanna spew coke over!
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| Worrying... |
[06 Oct 2004|06:58am] |
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I'm seriously worried.... is Sarah mad at me?
This is bothering me. If she were mad at me I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't fix it. I truly love her. So much.
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| Got... |
[04 Oct 2004|06:43am] |
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Teddy Bears Picnic |
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New speakers that rock. New phone that rocks even my speakers. IMAGE SHOTS of me and Evan. Paul and Jeremy action figures that rock everything- my socks, the house, my cock, my world. You name it- they rock it.
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| Death to the doll...? |
[02 Oct 2004|07:43am] |
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My god... I've ruined my life. My life is the best it's ever been... and Sarah hates me. Ok- so good plus bad equals... nothing. I wish I hadn't posted that I hate her. Please forgive me... PLEASE OMFG
We went to Chamiza again last night... then my mom got mad.
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